Without Rain

It's been 113 days since we last talked. And I remember it perfectly. I remember the way you walked towards my car and the way you smiled when you got in my car. And how badly I just wanted you to kiss me. Again. But I know what happened between us was my fault, and I live with the biggest regret everyday. Because you were the best thing that walked into my life last year. And I fucked it up, I fucked it up, I fucked it up. I am dying everyday on the inside because even though no one else's so how sensitive you are you let me in and trusted me and I broke it. I wish you would accept my apology. No I wish you would talk to me and tell me how you feel I don't care what you have to say. I just want to know you care.

You

• Told me you would never hurt me.
• Told me you thought I was funny.
• Told me you will always be there for me.
• Told me I was breaking your heart.

Tell me one more thing, how? How am I the one who loves you unconditionally breaking your heart. You led me on with mixed signals for 3 months. If you only knew how broken my heart was then maybe you would understand. But you don't and I don't think you will.

I respect you that's why I don't talk to you as much anymore. No matter how bad it hurts me I would never want to make you upset or embarrassed. I'm sick of going through this same shit over and over like that stupid Macklemore song on the radio. If everything would just stop and let be... With you. Then i would finally be able to say I'm fine. And mean it. Because knowing that I could be with you is one of those things that happen every blue moon. How could a guy like you, like someone like me. I know how fucking corny that sounds but its true. You take me breath away every time I see you. And a little song plays in my head that I sing along with as you walk by me everyday. I don't know how or why but,


After all this time I'm Still Into You.